{"id":625,"date":"2009-12-07T00:24:58","date_gmt":"2009-12-06T22:24:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=625"},"modified":"2025-12-09T00:06:45","modified_gmt":"2025-12-08T22:06:45","slug":"yasamin-kiyisinda-sevgiyi-paylasmak","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=625","title":{"rendered":"Ya\u015fam\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda sevgiyi payla\u015fmak"},"content":{"rendered":"

G\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde sevgiyi payla\u015fmak ad\u0131na bir \u015feyler karalayaca\u011f\u0131m hi\u00e7 gelmedi akl\u0131ma.\"\" 1950\u00b4 li 1970 l\u0131 y\u0131llarda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m B\u00fcy\u00fckaday\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn resmini g\u00f6rmem pek zor olmad\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sokak kap\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kilitlenmedi\u011fi, sofralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n t\u00fcm dostlara a\u00e7\u0131k oldu\u011fu y\u0131llar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczle k\u0131yaslad\u0131k\u00e7a, ge\u00e7en y\u0131llar i\u00e7erisinde nekadar fakirle\u015fti\u011fimizi g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum. \u0130nsani de\u011ferlerin \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc! A\u011flaman\u0131n, g\u00fclmenin, h\u00fcz\u00fcnlenmenin , sevmenin, makinala\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131, h\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme melekemizi elimizden alan \u015fu garip D\u00fcnyadan ne bekliyebilirki art\u0131k insan o\u011flu.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tabiki ya\u015fam kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 bir dokunu\u015fta, bir bak\u0131\u015fta, hissetmekte gizli. Bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn yapay de\u011ferlerinde de\u011fil. Her \u015feyi maddiyatta, l\u00fckste, aramak, ve hatta bencilli\u011fin had safhaya ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczden ba\u015fka ne beklenebilirki.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Hayat\u0131m ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015fu garip d\u00fcnyada karma\u015fan\u0131n esiri olmu\u015f, o kadar ucuz de\u011ferlere ortak olmu\u015f’ ki, her g\u00fcn biraz daha yok oluyor sanki. Biraz daha karma\u015fa i\u00e7inde ya\u015fam\u0131n fark\u0131na varmadan kaybolup gidiyorum. O kadar \u00e7ok acele ya\u015f\u0131yorum ki hayat\u0131. Bir tabloya bakarken, bir kitab\u0131 okurken bile neyi anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00fczerinde durup d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye f\u0131rsat bulam\u0131yorum. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z y\u00fczy\u0131lda insanlar’da art\u0131k sadece ya\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131 daha zengin bir ortamda s\u00fcrd\u00fcrme kayg\u0131s\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yorlar. As\u0131l de\u011ferlerin yerini (sayg\u0131, sevgi, dostluk, g\u00fcven, payla\u015f\u0131m gibi) insani de\u011ferler de\u011filde\u00a0 maddi de\u011ferler alm\u0131\u015f.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yar\u0131m ve geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyleri saymak dahi istemiyorum. Bu acelecili\u011fim niye diye soruyorum kendime. N\u00fcrnberg, \u0130stanbul, Antalya, K\u0131br\u0131s aras\u0131nda gidip gidip geliyorken Sevgimi bile ya\u015fayam\u0131yor, en sevdiklerimle bile payla\u015fam\u0131yordum. Bir birimize yeterince vakit ay\u0131ram\u0131yor, ya\u015fam\u0131n yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan su gibi ak\u0131p ge\u00e7ti\u011finin fark\u0131na varam\u0131yor, dostluklar\u0131n bile sahte ve \u00e7\u0131kar ili\u015fkilerinden \u00f6teye ge\u00e7medi\u011fini g\u00f6remiyordum. Bazen ge\u00e7mi\u015fte tak\u0131l\u0131 kal\u0131r\u0131m g\u00f6n\u00fcl dostum, sevgililerim gelir akl\u0131ma. G\u00f6nl\u00fcmde fark\u0131ndal\u0131k yaratm\u0131\u015f, k\u0131skand\u0131rmak ad\u0131na \u00e7ektirdi\u011fim onca ac\u0131lara ra\u011fmen benden vaz ge\u00e7memi\u015f g\u00f6n\u00fcl dostlar\u0131m. Fark\u0131nda m\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z? Sizleri ne kadar \u00e7ok \u00f6zledi\u011fimi. G\u00f6n\u00fcl dostlar\u0131m ve onlar\u0131n bitmek t\u00fckenmek bitmeyen sevilerini.\"\"<\/span><\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde a\u015fklar sahte, sevgililer sevgisiz , dostluklar bile sahte, hatta evlilik kurumlar\u0131 bile \u00e7\u0131kar ili\u015fkilerinden \u00f6teye ge\u00e7miyor art\u0131k. G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde her \u015fey kazanmak \u00fczerine kurulmu\u015f de\u011fer \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcleri de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015f, maddeye ula\u015fman\u0131n her yolu m\u00fcbah gibi. Zaman ne kadar ac\u0131mas\u0131z davranm\u0131\u015f fark\u0131nda olmadan. Ne kadar \u00e7ok \u00f6zler olmu\u015fum g\u00f6n\u00fcl dostlar\u0131m\u0131 ve sevilerini. \u015eimdilerde elimden hi\u00e7 bir\u015fey gelmiyor. Yazmak ve yazarken \u00f6zlemekten ba\u015fka.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130nsan o\u011flu neden genellikle hep yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7er, neden hep bo\u011fuldu\u011fumuzu san\u0131p ka\u00e7ar\u0131z insanlardan? Bu acelecilik bu korku bu ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f niye? Sevgileri ger\u00e7ek g\u00f6n\u00fcl dostluklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fcyor muyuz bu ka\u00e7\u0131\u015flarda beraberce? Sevgilerimizi de \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek kadar sevgi katili olmuyor muyuz? Sevgiyle bak\u0131p b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz bir \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi sevgi u\u011fruna dal\u0131ndan kopar\u0131p sevdi\u011fimize verirken, hatta \u00f6rf ve adetlerimiz u\u011fruna g\u00fcn ve g\u00fcn sevgiyi katletmiyormuyuz. Sevgiyi dudaklar\u0131m\u0131zdan kalbimize indiremeden her f\u0131rsatta sevgi s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131zda sak\u0131z gibi \u00e7i\u011fnemekten yorulmad\u0131km\u0131? Asl\u0131nda ben o kadar yorgun hissediyorumki kendimi tarifi imkans\u0131z!<\/span><\/p>\n

Biliyorum’ki, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcklerim ile ya\u015fant\u0131m aras\u0131ndaki ili\u015fkiler \u00e7o\u011fu kez arzu etti\u011fimin, umdu\u011fumun d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kal\u0131yor. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f bazen bir Film \u015feridi gibi ge\u00e7iyor g\u00f6zlerimin \u00f6n\u00fcnden. Hat\u0131r\u0131mda kalan nerede olduklar\u0131n\u0131 dahi bilmedi\u011fim o kadar az g\u00f6n\u00fcl dostum var ki. Kimi hayat\u0131ma girmi\u015f iz b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f kimi nin ismini bile hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. Akl\u0131ma geldik\u00e7e ge\u00e7mi\u015fimdeki a\u015fk ili\u015fkilerim \u00f6zledi\u011fimi fark ediyorum. Durmadan bir karamsarl\u0131\u011fa bir y\u0131lg\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru s\u00fcr\u00fckleniyorum. Hayat\u0131, sevmeyi \u00f6\u011frenemeden belki de sevilemeden, al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k haline getirmi\u015fim ya\u015famay\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yazarken ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131\"\" \u015fu D\u00fcnya yang\u0131n yerine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, sevgisizli\u011fin, adaletsizli\u011fin, vurdum duymazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, hayat\u0131ma nas\u0131l girdi\u011fini, beni nas\u0131l etkileyip bir bilinmeze s\u00fcr\u00fckledi\u011finin fark\u0131na varmak istedim. Ey siz sessiz, sevgilerin sessiz ortaklar\u0131; Akl\u0131mda kalan Niki, Nesrin, H\u00fclya (aslen Memnune)Nur Banu, yok can\u0131m Demet\u2019mi demeliyim, yoksa Tuana yok hay\u0131r belki’de ismini bile anmak istemediklerimden Ay\u015fen gibilermi. Yok can\u0131m \u015fimdi nerelerdedirler kim bilir. G\u00f6rmek istedi\u011fimde yok olan, yinede hayat\u0131mda iz b\u0131rakan kad\u0131nlar. Akl\u0131ma geldik\u00e7e y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcrenler, h\u00fcz\u00fcnlendirenler. Asl\u0131nda onlar\u0131 hi\u00e7 mi hi\u00e7 unutmak istemedim. Untmad\u0131m\u2018da \u00e7aresizce kalbimin bir k\u00f6\u015fesinde m\u00fcebbet hapse mahkum ettim hepsini.<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u0131br\u0131s ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n sarma\u015f\u0131k misali karma\u015f\u0131k y\u0131llar\u0131. Bo\u011faz’\u0131n kumsal\u0131nda, serin bir gecenin sisli havas\u0131nda \u0131slak damlac\u0131klar bedeninime yay\u0131l\u0131rken, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcp ka\u00e7mak yerine, y\u00fcre\u011finize sevginin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 esir edin istedim; Benim yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi yapmadan; ya\u015fam\u0131n kendinize Tanr\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan bah\u015fedilmi\u015f en kutsal \u00f6d\u00fcl say\u0131n diye. Sevin yaln\u0131zca sevin; Ya\u015fam\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda da olsan\u0131z sevginizi payla\u015f\u0131n.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

G\u00f6n\u00fcl dostlar\u0131<\/span>m. Do\u011f<\/span>up b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f<\/span>\u00fcm yerde Seviler, a\u015f<\/span>klar\u00a0 g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczdeki gibi de\u011f<\/span>ildi. Sevgilim dedi\u011f<\/span>inizle el ele y\u00fcreyebilmek\u00a0 sar\u0131<\/span>labilmek bir \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fck alabilmek u\u011f<\/span>runa;\u00a0 Aday\u0131<\/span> turlard\u0131<\/span>n\u0131<\/span>z. Hiristos tepesi, Dil burnu, Kur\u015f<\/span>un burnu, Ayayorgi gibi sizleri kimselerin g\u00f6remeyece\u011f<\/span>i yerler arard\u0131<\/span>n\u0131<\/span>z. sar\u0131<\/span>labilmek ad\u0131<\/span>na. A\u011f<\/span>a\u00e7<\/span>lar bile sormadan kimseye\u00a0 sar\u0131<\/span>l\u0131<\/span>rken bir birbirlerine herkesin g\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6n\u00fcnde; yaradan‘<\/span>\u0131<\/span>n\u00a0 yaratt\u0131<\/span>klar\u0131<\/span>na kar\u015f\u0131<\/span> gelmek olmuyormu?<\/p>\n

Unutulmayan seviler, hikayeler yarat\u0131n kendinize. \u00d6yle an\u0131lar olsun ki y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcrs\u00fcn. Korkmadan \u00e7ekinmeden ad\u0131n\u0131 hayk\u0131r\u0131n kumsaldan denize, da\u011flar\u0131n tepesinden vadiye. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda seyredebilece\u011finiz tekrar, tekrar ya\u015fayabilece\u011finiz \u00e7ok g\u00fczel bir hikaye fragman\u0131, an\u0131lar;\u00a0 son zamanlar\u0131n\u0131zda, sizinle birlikte olmas\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131na.<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

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Mehmet Tevfik \u00d6zkartal<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

07.12.2009\u00a0 Yagdweg\u00a0 Stein<\/p>\n

Yay\u0131<\/span>nlanan\u00a0 gazete\u00a0 Mecmua<\/p>\n

Gazete Almanci & Euroviyzon<\/strong><\/p>\n

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G\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde sevgiyi payla\u015fmak ad\u0131na bir \u015feyler karalayaca\u011f\u0131m hi\u00e7 gelmedi akl\u0131ma. 1950\u00b4 li 1970 l\u0131 y\u0131llarda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m B\u00fcy\u00fckaday\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn resmini g\u00f6rmem pek zor olmad\u0131. Sokak kap\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kilitlenmedi\u011fi, sofralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n t\u00fcm dostlara a\u00e7\u0131k oldu\u011fu y\u0131llar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczle k\u0131yaslad\u0131k\u00e7a, ge\u00e7en y\u0131llar i\u00e7erisinde nekadar fakirle\u015fti\u011fimizi g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum. \u0130nsani de\u011ferlerin \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc! A\u011flaman\u0131n, g\u00fclmenin, h\u00fcz\u00fcnlenmenin , sevmenin, makinala\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131, h\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/625"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=625"}],"version-history":[{"count":37,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/625\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3468,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/625\/revisions\/3468"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=625"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=625"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=625"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}