{"id":2594,"date":"2010-04-14T22:45:58","date_gmt":"2010-04-14T20:45:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=2594"},"modified":"2025-05-24T22:32:01","modified_gmt":"2025-05-24T20:32:01","slug":"o-cocugum-ben","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=2594","title":{"rendered":"O \u00c7ocu\u011fum ben"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ahmet\u2019in ar\u015fivinden \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p, g\u00f6rselimize sundu\u011fu resimlere bak\u0131yorum<\/strong>\"\"<\/a>\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumuz\u2019da sahip olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u00a0\u00a0 foto\u011fraf makinesinin ne kadar iyi bir yol arkada\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu yeni, yeni ke\u015ffediyorum. Kaybolmu\u015f an\u0131lar\u0131m canlan\u0131veriyor birden bakarken siyah beyaz resimlere. Renkleniyorlar g\u00f6z bebeklerimde. \u00c7ouklu\u011fumuzun Futbol sahas\u0131, aram\u0131zda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ma\u00e7lar; resimler siyah, beyaz renklenerek \u00a0canlan\u0131yor sanki.<\/p>\n

Kaleci, oyuncu kavram\u0131 vard\u0131. Tak\u0131mlar\u0131n genellikle iyi oyuncular\u0131 bu kutsal g\u00f6reve kendilerini adarlard\u0131. Ben hep kaleci olarak yer al\u0131rd\u0131m sahada. Bir topu tutmak i\u00e7in kendimi yerden yere at\u0131p kolumu, dizimi par\u00e7alamay\u0131 g\u00f6ze al\u0131rd\u0131m. Ama\u00e7 arkada\u015flar\u0131n be\u011fenisini kazanamakt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Madeni\u00a0 para o zamanlar kolay bulunmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, ma\u00e7\u0131n hangi tak\u0131m taraf\u0131ndan ba\u015flat\u0131laca\u011f\u0131na; bir taraf\u0131na t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f yass\u0131 bir ta\u015f\u0131n havaya at\u0131l\u0131p, ya\u015f m\u0131, kuru mu se\u00e7iminde do\u011fru taraf\u0131 bilen taraf\u0131n ba\u015flamas\u0131 y\u00f6ntemi ile karar verilirdi. Resmiler siyah beyaz\u00a0 \u00e7ekilm\"\"<\/a>i\u015f, olsun!.. ben renkli g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Dikenlerin b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrtlen \u00e7al\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erek Naki beye ula\u015f\u0131yorum. Bal\u0131k tutan birka\u00e7 ki\u015fi\u2026 Sahilde g\u00fcne\u015flenenler, y\u00fczenler, botlarda, kay\u0131klarda e\u011flenenler. Bah\u00e7elerinde, balkonlar\u0131nda ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc kar\u015f\u0131layanlar, B\u00fcy\u00fck ada\u00a0 kendi halince. Her yaz oldu\u011fu gibi, Naki bey; bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck deniz\u00a0 k\u0131y\u0131 \u015feridinde, k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fc, denize kadar uzanan bah\u00e7esi ve \u0130skelesi olan ki\u015finin ad\u0131 ile an\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Kumsal\u0131n hemen yukar\u0131s\u0131nda Ko\u00e7o amcan\u0131n evi, bir de k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bostan\u0131 vard\u0131. Sahide oturuyor ve g\u00f6zlerimi yumuyorum. G\u00f6zlerimin egemen oldu\u011fu bir d\u00fcnyadan bir an uzakla\u015fmak istiyorum. Tenime de\u011fen r\u00fczg\u00e2ra b\u0131rak\u0131yorum kendimi. Denizin sesi insanlar\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda yok olup, g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcye yeniliyor. Ku\u015f c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 tek t\u00fck.<\/span><\/p>\n

Naki bey\u2019in iskelesine \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor ve ard\u0131mda kalan g\u00fcne kulak kesiliyorum. Konuklu\u011fundan ho\u015fnut, ard\u0131mda kalan g\u00fcnden, bu adan\u0131n \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc anlatmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyorum.<\/p>\n

Pek \u00e7ok deniz k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131 ortak, bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda anlat\u0131r var olan \u00f6yk\u00fcy\u00fc. G\u00fcn boyu \u00e7ekilmi\u015f her foto\u011fraf karesinde, yaz\u0131p s\u00f6yle\u015fti\u011fim her insanda,\u00a0 \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc ar\u0131yorum g\u00f6zlerim kapal\u0131.<\/p>\n

Evlerin birbirlerinden g\u00fc\u00e7 alabilmek i\u00e7in dizimi, sokaklar\u0131 yaratt\u0131klar\u0131 duygusuna, kap\u0131l\u0131p giderken,\u00a0\"\"<\/p>\n

ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n\u0131n, g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi tak\u0131l\u0131yor g\u00f6z\u00fcme. Yoksa g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri mi? Nevruz Mevki Nr.7\u00a0 Tepek\u00f6y, evimin soka\u011fa bakan y\u00fcz\u00fc renk renk \u00e7i\u00e7eklerle donat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. \u0130nsan; \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri seviyor. \u00c7i\u00e7eklere ya\u015fam\u0131nda yer a\u00e7t\u0131k\u00e7a, sevinci \u00e7o\u011falmaya duruyor. Hasret\u2019de \u00e7o\u011falan sevin\u00e7ten pay\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fene sar\u0131l\u0131yor.<\/p>\n

Erkan G\u00fcrp\u0131nar, Engin G\u00fcrp\u0131nar, Fikret, Co\u015fkun, \u0130semi Han,\u00a0 a\u011fabeyi\u00a0 BuminUlusoy, Nesrin, Nur,\u00a0 \u00c7i\u011fdem, Ha\u00e7ik, yamyam,\u0130rfan Uzun,\u00a0 Stathakis, Maki, Niki,<\/strong> Stavro, Niko, Yorgo,<\/strong> Marina, Despina,\u00a0<\/strong> \u00a0Niki (\u00c7iropulos)<\/strong> ve daha niceleri i\u00e7in de bu b\u00f6yle. G\u00fcler y\u00fcz\u00fcnde \u00e7i\u00e7eklerimizin izi var. \u201cBen bu Ada\u2018da do\u011fdum. Sonra g\u00f6\u00e7 ettik. Bu ada\u2019da\u00a0 neler kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131? Ard\u0131m\u0131zda neler b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6nemlidir. Bir g\u00fcn ard\u0131m\u0131zda b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z bize s\u00f6yler \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc, geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcl\u00fcp d\u00f6n\u00fclemeyece\u011fini, bunu isteyip istemeyece\u011fimizi.<\/p>\n

Birden Stathakis ve onun gibiler ile empati kuruyorum. Kendi do\u011fdu\u011fum mahallede, b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m evimin merdivenlerini an\u0131ms\u0131yorum. Beraberce oyunlar oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, \u00e7ocukluk arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131, kom\u015fular\u0131m\u0131. Kap\u0131s\u0131 bir daha a\u00e7\u0131lmamak \u00fczere\u00a0 kapanm\u0131\u015f evimi. Art\u0131k an\u0131lar\u0131mdan ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir yerde olmayan. Bir g\u00fcn yeniden arkada\u015flar\u0131mla oyunlar oynamay\u0131 istememeliyim. O evi kapatt\u0131lar! Bana geriye d\u00f6n\u00fclemeyece\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor kapanan o ev.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131lar\u0131 Kapanan evler;\"\" <\/strong><\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar sonra Yunanistana giden dostlar\u0131m, arkada\u015flar\u0131m Yunanca \u00f6\u011frenmek zorunda kald\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylediklerinde \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Hatta Anadoluya M\u00d6 850 lerde gelen T\u00fcrk boylar\u0131ndan Karamano\u011fullar\u0131 G\u00f6k O\u011fuzlar, Avar ve Bugar boylar\u0131n\u0131n daha sonra Ortodoks dinini se\u00e7tiklerini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde \u015fa\u015fk\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Kril alfabesi ile T\u00fcrk\u00e7e yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 T\u00fcrk\u00e7e konu\u015ftuklar\u0131n\u0131 ilk ba\u015flarda, Rumca bilmediklerini \u00d6\u011frendi\u011fim\u2019de daha\u2019da \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Rum, T\u00fcrk Ortodoks farketmez; Binlerce y\u0131ld\u0131r ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 vatanlar\u0131ndan, bu \u015fekilde kopar\u0131lmalar\u0131, s\u00fcr\u00fclmeleri ve hatta tehdit edilerek, gitmeleri i\u00e7in yap\u0131lan bask\u0131lar\u0131, bir insanl\u0131k ay\u0131b\u0131 olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n

B\u00fcy\u00fckada ve di\u011fer Adalar\u2019da ve t\u00fcm Anadolu\u2019da b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131 evler i\u00e7in ya\u015fam, Ortodoks T\u00fcrklere ve Rumlara neler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor? <\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u0130nan\u0131rm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z Padi\u015fah analar\u0131 adl\u0131 kitab\u0131 okudu\u011fumda \u015foka girmi\u015ftim. me\u011fer Devleti Aliye Osman Orhandan ba\u015flayarak Rum Yunan, Ukraine, Rus, Musevi Hazar T\u00fcrkler annelerine sahiplermi\u015f. \u0130stanbulu Fetheden Fatihin de annesi K\u00f6sem Sultan Helen k\u00f6kenliymi\u015f Yani K\u00f6sem Sultan. O\u011fluna destek vermi\u015f Kostantiyenin fethinde.\u00a0 Katolik Papan\u0131n eline ge\u00e7mektense O\u011flum als\u0131n diyerek\u00a0 destek bile vermi\u015fler. Bug\u00fcn \u0130stanbulda, Adalarda ve Anadolunun genelinde parmakla say\u0131lacak kadar az Rum, T\u00fcrk Ortodoks hem\u015fehrimiz var. Ancak Yunanistan\u2019da\u00a0 T\u00fcrkiyeden giden\u00a0 Rumlar\u0131n, ve Ortodoks T\u00fcrklerin kurduklar\u0131, birlikte ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 \u00e7e\u015fitli b\u00f6lgelerde, ya\u015famlar\u0131 hep yar\u0131m. Ayr\u0131 \u00fclkelerdeki karde\u015f beldeler ve insanlar\u0131 ortak duygular i\u00e7inde, ge\u00e7mi\u015flerinin izlerini s\u00fcrmek istiyor. Bu izler kendilerini en canl\u0131 bi\u00e7imde evlerde ya\u015fat\u0131l\u0131yor. Evler, i\u00e7lerinde ya\u015fayan insanlarla birlikte soluk al\u0131p vermeyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f, koruma alt\u0131na al\u0131nanlar, ancak di\u011fer tarihi yap\u0131lar, evler kadar \u015fansl\u0131 olamam\u0131\u015f. Oysa ekmek kavgas\u0131 hep bildi\u011fimiz kavga\u2026 Sonra\u2026 Benim i\u00e7in bir T\u00fcrk ortodoks\u00a0 m\u00fcsl\u00fcman olmu\u015f bir araptan daha k\u0131ymetli.<\/p>\n

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Naz\u0131m Hikmet\u2019i an\u0131ms\u0131yorum: \u201c<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ve a\u00e7sak, yorgunsak, al kan i\u00e7indeysek e\u011fer<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ve h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u015farab\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 v<\/strong>ermek i\u00e7in, \u00fcz\u00fcm gibi eziliyorsak,<\/strong><\/p>\n

Kabahat senin demeye\u2019de dilim varm\u0131yor ama…<\/strong><\/p>\n

Kabahatin \u00e7o\u011fu senin, can\u0131m karde\u015fim\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Kalan bir ka\u00e7 Rum dostum Ada\u2019da, mahsun; B\u00fcy\u00fckada\u2019dan ben ba\u015fka yer bilmem diyor. \u201cBurada do\u011fdum, burada \u00f6lece\u011fim.\u201d Ba\u015fka bir yer bilmemenin kederini ar\u0131yorum g\u00f6zlerinde!.. Bulam\u0131yorum. Rahat s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 belli ya\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131n ve ya\u015fayacaklar\u0131n\u0131n verdi\u011fi\u00a0 g\u00fcven i\u00e7inde. G\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ge\u00e7irmi\u015f a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n g\u00f6lgelerine anlat\u0131lan masalar, sandalyeler, Hiristos tepesinde. Asl\u0131nda bu g\u00fcnlerde Dedemin Karaferyeyi ( Bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc Veria)\u00a0 Babaannemin Selani\u011fi Beyaz kuleyi\u00a0 unutmad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zlem i\u00e7inde olduklar\u0131n\u0131 daha iyi anl\u0131yorum.\u00a0 Hepsi hepsi 100 y\u0131l.\u00a0 \u00f6nceki y\u0131llarda 600 y\u0131l birlikte ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f bu insanlar bat\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131\u015fk\u0131rtmas\u0131 ile kendi Devleti Aliye’ye ihanet etmi\u015f gibi geliyor bana. \u0130stanbul’un Fethi;\u00a0 Kostantinopolis den \u00f6nceki ad\u0131 ile ”\u0130stanbul” Orhan ile ba\u015flayan\u00a0 t\u00fcrk- helen imparatorlu\u011funa kimler ihanet etti. Orhan’\u0131n Holofira ile evlenerek ba\u015flayan ser\u00fcven VI. \u0130oannisin k\u0131z\u0131 Theodora Hatun’u e\u015f olarak al\u0131nca Orhana Gelibolu d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn hediyesi olarak verilmi\u015ftir yani Drahoma. Orhan\u0131n\u00a0 ve\u00a0 Theodora n\u0131n o\u011flu olan\u00a0 \u015eehzade Halil bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc tahta ge\u00e7ememi\u015f,\u00a0 \u015eehzade Murat Orhandan sonra ki padi\u015fah olarak tarihe ge\u00e7mi\u015ftir.\u00a0 Annesi K\u00f6sem sultan olarak bilinen Rum k\u00f6kenli bir anneden do\u011fan\u00a0 2 inci Mehmet in\u00a0 Rumca, Fars\u00e7a, Arap\u00e7a bilmesi kadar do\u011fal ne olabilirki.\u00a0 Fatih sultan Mehmet asl\u0131nda \u0130stanbulu Fetih\u00a0 etmemi\u015f Katolik istilas\u0131ndan kurtarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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Asl\u0131nda ”Devleti Aliye Osman” bir Helen T\u00fcrk imparatorlu\u011fuymu\u015f da haberimiz yokmu\u015f. Heyhat. Kim sormay\u0131n bana.\u00a0 Ben dedem ve Babaannemin Selanikte ki beyaz kulede ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck a\u015fk\u0131 sevday\u0131 dinleyerek b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. K\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn K\u0131r\u0131ma dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirim. Babaannemin Selanik liman\u0131n\u0131n sahibi me\u015fhur Arnavut Toro’nun tek k\u0131z\u0131 oldu\u011funu da. Anam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm de\u00a0 Mahitap han\u0131m Bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc\u00a0 Makedonyan\u0131n Ki\u00e7evo \u015fehrinin\u00a0 Lesi\u00e7ani k\u00f6y\u00fcnde d\u00fcnyaya gelmi\u015f Annesi arnavut Babas\u0131 T\u00fcrk bir\u00a0 k\u0131z oldu\u011funuda.\u00a0 Ne olmu\u015f da Devleti Aliye Osman her y\u00f6nden ihanete u\u011fram\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 Valla ben Helen T\u00fcrk \u0130mparatorlu\u011funu bilmem bildi\u011fim tek \u015fey sak\u0131n ha Avrupaya, Amerikaya\u00a0 g\u00fcvenmeyin \u00f6yle ve ya b\u00f6yle bizler sizleri 1000 y\u0131ll\u0131k karde\u015f olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz. Ortodoks T\u00fcrkleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce 5 bin y\u0131ll\u0131k karde\u015fli\u011fimiz var. Soyum helen diyenlere de bir laf\u0131m var.\u00a0 Bizler kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f\u0131z \u00e7oktan bir olmu\u015fuz.Huyumuz \u00f6rf adetlerimiz bile bir. Sizlerdeki Drahoma G\u00f6k Tingriye inanan T\u00fcrklerden ge\u00e7mi\u015f sizlere haberiniz ola.<\/p>\n

\u00dclkemde Yezidin soylar\u0131 t\u00fckendi\u011fin de\u00a0 Bekta\u015fi Alevi yolundaki M\u00fcsl\u00fcman T\u00fcrkler ile bir olursunuz. Adaletin \u00f6n Planda odu\u011fu\u00a0 her kesin e\u015fit bir vatanda\u015f olarak ya\u015fayabilece\u011fi\u00a0 Helen T\u00fcrk \u0130mparatorlu\u011funa kavu\u015fmak umudumu yitirmeden.<\/p>\n

B\u00fcy\u00fckada’da\u00a0 Kahvenaneler, \u0130skele meydan\u0131, sahil \u015feritlerinin vazge\u00e7ilmezidir. B\u00fcy\u00fckadan\u0131n\u2019da olmal\u0131yd\u0131 b\u00f6yle bir meydan\u0131, \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131s\u0131.<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ya\u015fam\u0131n s\u0131radan ak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n do\u011fal tan\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir meydan. Ad\u0131n\u0131n Vapur iskelesi, ba\u015fka bir ad olmas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6nemini yitirdi\u011fi \"\"<\/a>bir alan.\u0130skele \u00fczerinde kendimi bir b\u0131rakay\u0131m r\u00fczg\u00e2ra\u2026 Karn\u0131m da ac\u0131k\u0131r. Tertemiz oldu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenen bal\u0131k lokantalar\u0131ndan birini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcm, \u0130skeledeyiz gene karde\u015f oluruz.e oturuyor ve ard\u0131mda kalan g\u00fcn\u00fc dinliyorum bu kez\u2018de. \u0130\u00e7im yan\u0131yor, inad\u0131na susuyorum. Sustuk\u00e7a, kopar\u0131yorum her bir par\u00e7am\u0131 bedenimden. Duygular\u0131m bende h\u00fck\u00fcms\u00fcz, d\u00fc\u015flerim yar\u0131m. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kap\u0131lar\u0131 kapan\u0131yor y\u00fcz\u00fcme, ruhum bir orada bir burada, gel, gitlerde, firari \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum. B\u00fcy\u00fcmek, asl\u0131nda \u00f6zlemekmi\u015f. Domatesli, peynirli, Jambonlu, sandivi\u00e7leri, h\u0131zl\u0131, h\u0131zl\u0131 yedikten sonra, tekrar d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya, soka\u011fa oyuna d\u00f6nmeyi \u00e7ook \u00f6zledim. Annem mutfakta yemek yaparken, masada ders \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmay\u0131, onunla\u00a0 sohbet etmeyi \u00e7ok \u00f6zledim. \u0130spirto oca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, beyaz fayans kapl\u0131 mutfa\u011f\u0131 \u00f6zledim. Bah\u00e7emizdeki o dut a\u011fac\u0131nda g\u00fcn do\u011fumundan g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131na kadar dut yemeyi, annem bir daha izin vermez diye, g\u00fcn boyu onun \u00fczerinde oturdu\u011fum g\u00fcnleri \u00f6zledim. <\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00a0Babam\u0131n \u00e7am a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n Dallar\u0131na kurdu\u011fu sal\u0131nca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6zledim. Bah\u00e7elerden erik, mandalina, incir\u00a0 \u00e7almay\u0131. Oram\u0131 buram\u0131 \u00e7ize \u00e7ize b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrtlen toplamay\u0131, Yap\u0131 Kredi Bankas\u0131ndan gelen Do\u011fan karde\u015f\u00a0 mecmuas\u0131n\u0131, heyecanla okumay\u0131 \u00f6zledim.\u00a0 \u00a0<\/span>\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumun tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zledim. Tay\u0131m Atlas\u0131 , pedalla y\u00fcr\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm Cipimi ve\u00a0 Arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6zledim. Yakartop ,birdir bir, saklanba\u00e7 oynamay\u0131, E\u015f\u015fek\u00e7i deli ali amcay\u0131 k\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131p, ka\u00e7may\u0131 bile \u00f6zledim. En \u00f6nemlisi dertssiz ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6zledim! neleri \u00f6zlemedim ki!\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n

B\u0131raksayd\u0131m kendimmi bo\u015flu\u011fa, hayallerim kalsayd\u0131 sadece geride. Ke\u015fke\u2019nin di\u011fer anlam\u0131 bu ben\u2018de ki\u2026 onun bo\u015flu\u011fu sadece \u201d ben<\/strong>\u201d im. Bende\u2019ki ben\u2019de ise, sahip oldu\u011fum bir \u00e7ok bo\u015fluk var.\"\"<\/p>\n

Kimi kocaman insanlar olmu\u015flar, kimi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuklar. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, ama hala \u00e7ocuklar. Onlar hi\u00e7 anlamazlar. Durup\u2019ta sormazlar hi\u00e7 neden?<\/p>\n

Hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmezler, hep devam ederler ya\u015famaya. Umarsamazl\u0131k diz boyu, ba\u015flar\u0131na vursanda g\u00fclerler. S\u0131fatlar\u0131 giyinmi\u015fler \u00fczerlerine\u00a0 herkes \u00e7alar ayr\u0131 bir telden. Sabah uynamak i\u00e7in saat \u00e7ok erken, bu k\u0131sa yolculuk farkl\u0131 her zamankinden. Yaslam\u0131\u015f\u0131m s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 bah\u00e7e duvar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken ben. Bir de Memo\u015f olmak var ” ikinci ruhum” i\u015fte o ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n belas\u0131 ben. Art\u0131k sus y\u00fcre\u011fim!… Duyuyor musun\u00a0 sesimi?\u00a0 Kimseler g\u00f6rmek, duymak istemesede,\u00a0 i\u015fte ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n belas\u0131\u00a0 ben ve Memo\u015f. Art\u0131k sus y\u00fcre\u011fim! Anlamasa da y\u00fcre\u011fimin sevdas\u0131n\u0131,\u00a0 duygular\u0131n\u0131n esiri olmu\u015f daha hala de\u011fi\u015fememi\u015f\u00a0 ben iki ruh birden<\/p>\n

\u00a0 Daha hala O \u00e7ocu\u011fum ben<\/strong><\/p>\n

Mehmet Tevfik \u00d6zkartal<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0Memo\u015f<\/strong><\/p>\n

11 Ocak 2020 de\u00a0 www.b\u00fcy\u00fckadada. biz<\/p>\n

Sayfas\u0131nda yay\u0131nland\u0131<\/p>\n

Okuyup yorum yaparsan\u0131z sevinirim<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ahmet\u2019in ar\u015fivinden \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p, g\u00f6rselimize sundu\u011fu resimlere bak\u0131yorum\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumuz\u2019da sahip olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u00a0\u00a0 foto\u011fraf makinesinin ne kadar iyi bir yol arkada\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu yeni, yeni ke\u015ffediyorum. Kaybolmu\u015f an\u0131lar\u0131m canlan\u0131veriyor birden bakarken siyah beyaz resimlere. Renkleniyorlar g\u00f6z bebeklerimde. \u00c7ouklu\u011fumuzun Futbol sahas\u0131, aram\u0131zda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ma\u00e7lar; resimler siyah, beyaz renklenerek \u00a0canlan\u0131yor sanki. Kaleci, oyuncu kavram\u0131 vard\u0131. Tak\u0131mlar\u0131n genellikle iyi oyuncular\u0131 bu kutsal g\u00f6reve […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[37,25],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2594"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2594"}],"version-history":[{"count":31,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2594\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3441,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2594\/revisions\/3441"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2594"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2594"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2594"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}