{"id":1591,"date":"2013-11-24T00:15:36","date_gmt":"2013-11-23T22:15:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=1591"},"modified":"2014-09-29T23:57:51","modified_gmt":"2014-09-29T21:57:51","slug":"her-seye-ragmen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=1591","title":{"rendered":"Hayat\u0131n getirdikleri"},"content":{"rendered":"

Her \u015feye ra\u011fmen imkans\u0131z oldu\u011funu bildi\u011fim bir a\u015fk vard\u0131 g\u00f6nl\u00fcme d\u00fc\u015fen.\"\"<\/a> \u0130mkans\u0131z olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen m\u00fckemmeldi. Birbirimizden asla vaz ge\u00e7emiyorduk. Asl\u0131nda bu sadece benim duygular\u0131md\u0131 diyebilirim belkide. O kendini ili\u015fkimizin a\u015fka d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmemesi gerekti\u011fine inand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan kontroll\u00fc davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan vazge\u00e7emiyordu. Benimle birlikteyken \u00e7ok e\u011flendi\u011fini, mutlu oldu\u011funu, s\u00f6ylerdi. Belkide hen\u00fcz duygular\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131nda bile de\u011fildi. Dostluk \u00fczerine kurulmu\u015f bir ili\u015fkinin sonunda belkide sayg\u0131, sevgi ba\u011f\u0131 olu\u015fmu\u015ftu aram\u0131zda. Bir yandan duygular\u0131ma kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verememenin s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 di\u011fer yanda iyi bir dostunu kaybetme korkusu. Bu ikilemde s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f ve nas\u0131l davranaca\u011f\u0131 konusunda bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc karar veremiyordu. Bense o pes edinceye kadar, onca ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ard\u0131ndan kimin yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmedi\u011fim Su ile Ate\u015fin hikayesini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n

Ate\u015f bir g\u00fcn suyu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, y\u00fcce da\u011flar\u0131n ard\u0131nda; sevdalanm\u0131\u015f onun deli dalgalar\u0131na. H\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n kayalara vuru\u015funa, y\u00fcre\u011findeki durulu\u011fa demi\u015f ki suya, gel sevdal\u0131m ol. Hayat\u0131ma anlam veren mucizem ol. Su dayanamam\u0131\u015f ate\u015fin g\u00f6zlerindeki s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011fa al demi\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fim sana arma\u011fan. Sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ate\u015fle su birbirine s\u0131k\u0131ca kopmazcas\u0131na. Zamanla su buhar olmaya ate\u015f k\u00fcl olmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f. Ya kendisi yok olacakm\u0131\u015f ya a\u015fk\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015ftan al\u0131nlar\u0131na yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olan kaderi, y\u00fcre\u011findeki kederide al\u0131p gitmi\u015f uzak diyarlara su. Ate\u015f k\u0131zm\u0131\u015f yakm\u0131\u015f ormanlar\u0131 aram\u0131\u015f. Suyu, diyarlar, g\u00fcnler geceler boyu. Bir g\u00fcn suya varm\u0131\u015f, yola bakm\u0131\u015f o duru g\u00f6zlerine suyun, biraz k\u0131rg\u0131n bir az h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n ve o an anlam\u0131\u015f; a\u015fk\u0131n bazen gitmek oldu\u011funu. Ama gitmenin yitirmek olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Ate\u015f durmu\u015f susmu\u015f. S\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f a\u015fk\u0131yla i\u015fte o zamandan beridir ki ate\u015f sudan su ate\u015ften ka\u00e7ar olmu\u015f. Ate\u015fin y\u00fcre\u011fini sadece su suyun y\u00fcre\u011fini’de ate\u015f al\u0131r olmu\u015f.<\/p>\n

Bu mesajla her \u015fey bitti benim ona dair inanc\u0131m vard\u0131 zannediyordum ki biz her \u015feyi a\u015far\u0131z. Fakat olmad\u0131 her \u015feye ra\u011fmen hala “kalbimdeki en \u00f6zel insan” bir araya gelememi\u015f \u00a0olsak bile ben hep var\u0131m. Var olduk\u00e7a inan bana seni yakaca\u011f\u0131m. Belki yar\u0131n belki yar\u0131ndan\u2019da yak\u0131n. Kim bilir belki bir ba\u015fka boyut’da erenlerin sa\u011f\u0131 solu pek bilmez derler.<\/p>\n

Mehmet Tevfik \u00d6zkartal<\/p>\n

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Her \u015feye ra\u011fmen imkans\u0131z oldu\u011funu bildi\u011fim bir a\u015fk vard\u0131 g\u00f6nl\u00fcme d\u00fc\u015fen. \u0130mkans\u0131z olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen m\u00fckemmeldi. Birbirimizden asla vaz ge\u00e7emiyorduk. Asl\u0131nda bu sadece benim duygular\u0131md\u0131 diyebilirim belkide. O kendini ili\u015fkimizin a\u015fka d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmemesi gerekti\u011fine inand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan kontroll\u00fc davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan vazge\u00e7emiyordu. Benimle birlikteyken \u00e7ok e\u011flendi\u011fini, mutlu oldu\u011funu, s\u00f6ylerdi. Belkide hen\u00fcz duygular\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131nda bile de\u011fildi. Dostluk \u00fczerine kurulmu\u015f bir ili\u015fkinin sonunda […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1591"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1591"}],"version-history":[{"count":15,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1591\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1851,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1591\/revisions\/1851"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1591"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1591"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1591"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}