{"id":638,"date":"2006-05-15T22:25:53","date_gmt":"2006-05-15T20:25:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=638"},"modified":"2024-04-11T01:07:06","modified_gmt":"2024-04-10T23:07:06","slug":"belkilerde-sakli","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=638","title":{"rendered":"Belkilerde sakl\u0131 sevda"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 sana yazd\u0131m t\u00fcm yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n sana oldu\u011fu gibi&#8230; \u00a0g\u00f6rme diye&#8230; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen bilin\u00e7alt\u0131m\u0131n en gizli k\u00f6\u015fesisin, en g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen k\u0131sm\u0131ndas\u0131n, ve g\u00fczel yerlerini an\u0131lar\u0131mla dolduruyorsun.<a href=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/11\/paasfofto.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft wp-image-626\" style=\"margin: 3px;\" title=\"paasfofto\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/11\/paasfofto.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"142\" height=\"134\" \/><\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 sana yazd\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen sana yaz\u0131lacak iyi, k\u00f6t\u00fc, g\u00fczel, \u00e7irkin t\u00fcm yaz\u0131lar\u0131 hakediyorsun. \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen teksin, belkilerde sakl\u0131 sevdams\u0131n. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen benim i\u00e7in kelimelerimin ka\u011f\u0131da d\u00f6k\u00fclmesini gerektirecek varl\u0131ks\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bir ara \u00f6l\u00fcyorum sand\u0131m, tamam dedim her \u015fey buraya kadar. K\u0131st\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131m bir k\u00f6\u015fede nas\u0131l olduysa; Azraile, kara basan gibi \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc \u00fczerime. Ruhumu teslim etmek \u00fczereyken uyand\u0131m, \u00f6yle bir nefes ald\u0131m ki; nefes alman\u0131n bile ya\u015famak i\u00e7in g\u00fczel bir sebep oldu\u011funa inand\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Kahvalt\u0131 masas\u0131 haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f, yoktun sen masada; herkeste surat be\u015f kar\u0131\u015f.<br \/>\nTam g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm r\u00fcyay\u0131 anlatacakt\u0131m, seco konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, sanki makinal\u0131 t\u00fcfek gibi seni anlat\u0131yordu masada. \u00d6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm r\u00fcya ger\u00e7ekti. Art\u0131k sen gitmi\u015ftin, bende k\u0131smen \u00f6l\u00fcyd\u00fcm. Sen eksik kalan tek yan\u0131m oldun . Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti \u00fczerinden her y\u0131l bu g\u00fcn r\u00fcyada \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm g\u00fcn; beni \u00f6pmeden gidi\u015findi belki&#8217;de beni \u00f6ld\u00fcren.<a href=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Suha-ile-\u015eark\u013102.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright wp-image-908\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"Suha-ile-\u015eark\u013102\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Suha-ile-\u015eark\u013102-300x291.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"210\" height=\"204\" srcset=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Suha-ile-\u015eark\u013102-300x291.jpg 300w, http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Suha-ile-\u015eark\u013102.jpg 800w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 210px) 100vw, 210px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ne kadar\u2019da \u00e7ok sevmi\u015ftim seni; bu ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde i\u00e7imden bir \u015fey kopuyor sanki. En g\u00fczelini yazmak istiyorum her seferinde olmuyor. Y\u00fcre\u011fimden dilime akm\u0131yor kelimeler, bekliyorum \u00fcmitsizce. S\u0131rf okumayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011fim i\u00e7in yaz\u0131yorum. Korkuyorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc, hem de \u00e7ok korkuyorum. Sen izin vermeden; sana, bendeki seni anlatmaya \u00e7ok korkuyorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc en ufak bir fikrim yok akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7enler hakk\u0131nda. \u015eimdiki belirsiz halini, aksi cevaba ye\u011fliyorum. Bu y\u00fczden bekleyebilirim i\u015fte.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Seni sevmiyorum&#8217;u duymaya cesaret edene kadar, o raddeye gelene kadar bekleyebilirim. nas\u0131l olsa r\u00fcyalar\u0131m avutuyor beni, her g\u00fcn biraz daha. o kadar heyecanlan\u0131yorum ki benimle oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015fledi\u011fimde. sana olan b\u00fct\u00fcn sevgimi g\u00f6sterme f\u0131rsat\u0131n\u0131 buldu\u011fumu, sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, seni izledigimi\u00a0 ve ilk defa hayallerimin suya d\u00fc\u015fmesinden de korkmuyorum. \u0130\u00e7inde sen olan hi\u00e7bir seyden korkmuyorum. \u015eu halinle bile, y\u0131llard\u0131r, iyi ki vars\u0131n. sana haz\u0131r\u0131m ben. Ve evet, zaman b\u00f6yle ge\u00e7iyor.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Akl\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyosun bu aralar hatta akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yosun demek daha do\u011fru belkide. Bilmiyorum bende hani arada s\u0131rada akl\u0131na geliyorumdur belki .. \u00e7aresizli\u011fin simsiyah sonsuzlu\u011funda nefes almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum sadece . Yoksun , \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum .. hani hep gidi\u015flerin arkas\u0131ndan s\u00f6ylerler ya &#8220;neler vermezdim o anlar i\u00e7in &#8221; \u00f6yle i\u015fte neler vermezdimki g\u00f6zlerinin esiri olmak i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Mevsimlerden sonbaharm\u0131\u015f, ama hikayenin kahramanlar\u0131n\u0131n ilkbahar\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. bir \u00f6\u011fleden sonra ad\u0131 gibi uzun boylu ve yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir prensin, g\u00fczel prensesi \u00f6pmesiyle prenses uykusundan uyanm\u0131\u015f. Uyanm\u0131\u015f ama bir r\u00fcyan\u0131n i\u00e7ine uyanm\u0131\u015f adeta. \u00d6p\u00fcc\u00fck \u00f6yle kuvvetliymi\u015f ki prensese t\u00fcm ge\u00e7mi\u015fini unutturuvermi\u015f. gelecekse zaten prense teslimmi\u015f. Prensesin g\u00f6z\u00fc belli bir yar\u0131 \u00e7ap\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kamaz olmu\u015f, hem zaten niye \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ki, orada gayet mutluymu\u015f. ama korkarm\u0131\u015f, acaba bir g\u00fcn bu r\u00fcyadan uyan\u0131r m\u0131y\u0131m diye. sonra hep dua edermi\u015f tanr\u0131ya bitmeyen r\u00fcyalar da olsun diye..<a href=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/210866.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft wp-image-1010\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"210866\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/210866-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"277\" height=\"208\" srcset=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/210866-300x225.jpg 300w, http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/210866.jpg 640w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 277px) 100vw, 277px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Gelecek planlar\u0131m\u0131z, hedeflerimiz,hayat \u00e7izgilerimiz.. Hepsi tek bir ama\u00e7 u\u011fruna varlar. Amac\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmek ad\u0131na sahip oldu\u011fumuz en b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn kayna\u011f\u0131 tutkumuz. Asla t\u00fckenmeyecek, gurur duydu\u011fumuz tutkumuz.. bir y\u0131l kadar \u00f6nce &#8220;a\u015fk nedir diye sorsalard\u0131, &#8221; somut kan\u0131tlarla \u0131spatlanabilecek hayallerin ger\u00e7ekli\u011fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fclme y\u00fczdesi &#8221; diyebilirdim. A\u015fk, benim i\u00e7in &#8220;kontrols\u00fcz belirsizlik&#8221; idi. aradan bir y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti.. a\u015fk\u0131n tan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftrdin.sen, &#8220;benim\u2018\u2018, ben de, &#8220;sendim&#8221; ya hani, &#8220;a\u015fk\u0131 kan\u0131tlayabilir misin ?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Hayat\u0131ma girdi\u011fin g\u00fcn g\u00f6zlerimin \u00f6n\u00fcnde, bir kitab\u0131n, bir hayat\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirebilece\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi bile bir imkans\u0131z iken, \u015fu an ger\u00e7ek a\u015fk\u0131 bana ya\u015fatabiliyor olman\u0131n verdi\u011fi heyecan, b\u00fct\u00fcn damarlar\u0131mda geziniyor. Her nefes al\u0131p veri\u015fimde, her kalp at\u0131\u015f\u0131mda.. ben bir trib\u00fcn, senin ismin ise, o trib\u00fcn\u00fcn tuttu\u011fu tak\u0131m\u0131n ismi gibi adeta. renklerine g\u00f6n\u00fcl verdi\u011fim.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sen \u015fimdi okuyamayacak olsan da yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131, bir tebess\u00fcm beliremeyecek olsa da sana etti\u011fim her iltifat\u0131n sonunda, haberin olmasa da burada bir y\u00fcre\u011fin senin i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, ben bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 sana yazd\u0131m. Her bir k\u0131vr\u0131m\u0131nda bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131m\u0131 eriten k\u0131v\u0131r k\u0131v\u0131r sa\u00e7lar\u0131n dalgalan\u0131rken, a\u011f\u0131r, a\u011f\u0131r, esen may\u0131s r\u00fczgarlar\u0131nda, g\u00f6zlerinin \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcren ac\u0131lara k\u00fcfrederek yazd\u0131m bu yaz\u0131y\u0131. Hi\u00e7 benim olmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilerek, g\u00f6zlerindeki sevgi p\u0131rlantalar\u0131n\u0131n, benim i\u00e7in asla parlamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilerek yazd\u0131m. <a href=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Bahce-Kasim-01.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright wp-image-914\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"Bahce-Kasim-01\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Bahce-Kasim-01-300x225.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"273\" height=\"205\" srcset=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Bahce-Kasim-01-300x225.png 300w, http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Bahce-Kasim-01.png 650w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 273px) 100vw, 273px\" \/><\/a>Sen hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131n, &#8220;ben de seni hi\u00e7 sevmedim ki! yorgun ak\u015famlarda s\u00f6yledi\u011fimiz \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 sevdim&#8221; demek ister ya deli g\u00f6n\u00fcl, sevdim, \u00e7ok sevdim&#8230; bir g\u00fcle benzemeni de sevdim y\u00fcrekten, ama ben as\u0131l seni \u00e7ok sevdim. Platonik a\u015f\u0131k \u015fiirleriyle elitist bir tav\u0131r tak\u0131narak, dalga ge\u00e7erek, ge\u00e7irdim \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc ya. Her kara a\u015f\u0131k yaz\u0131s\u0131na verebilece\u011fim ayar\u0131 verdim ya, y\u00fcre\u011fimden atamad\u0131m, senin i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan arabesk c\u00fcmleleri. &#8220;Geyi\u011fine dinliyorum yaaa&#8221; mazaretine s\u0131\u011f\u0131nsam da, unutulan, ya da cenneti d\u00fcnyada seninle g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Dinlerken, hep bir yan\u0131 ac\u0131d\u0131 kalbimin. \u015eairlerin sallanan dizeleri bir, bir, devrilirken seninle dolup ta\u015fan kalbimin \u00fcst\u00fcne, hep enkazdan kurtulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130nkar ettim \u00fcst\u00fcmdeki moloz y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n, a\u015fktan miras kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, kabullenemedim tek kurtar\u0131c\u0131m\u0131n bir tatl\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fcne gizlendi\u011fini. Ben bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 sana yazd\u0131m, sana yaz\u0131p da okutamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u00fczlercesi gibi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">T\u00fcm ger\u00e7ekleri olumsuz k\u0131lan bir masal\u0131m vard\u0131. ben o masalda gizli bir yer yaratm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m kendi i\u00e7imde kendime &#8221;sen&#8221;den habersiz. Ben bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 sana yazd\u0131m her ne kadar okumayacak olman\u0131 bilsem de.\u0130\u00e7imden ge\u00e7enler i\u00e7imden ge\u00e7ip gidiyor uzun zamand\u0131r,ama bir sebebi var zor g\u00fcnler ya\u015f\u0131yorum.<br \/>\nBelki ayn\u0131 anlama gelen farkl\u0131 bir c\u00fcmle de kurabilirdim,ama sonu\u00e7 de\u011fi\u015fmiyor, her seferinde ayn\u0131 c\u00fcmleyi kurarak \u00f6zetliyorum i\u015fte; zor g\u00fcnler ya\u015f\u0131yorum. Nas\u0131l zor g\u00fcnler a\u00e7\u0131klamak gerekirse anlatmaya halimin kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Asl\u0131nda \u00f6nemli olan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n &#8220;zor g\u00fcnler&#8221; olmas\u0131 de\u011fil,sonu umutsuzca biten her deneyimde hepimizin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o kendi g\u00f6rmek istemedi\u011fimiz k\u00f6t\u00fc yanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz,kendi \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131zla nas\u0131l ba\u015fa \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 farkedi\u015fimiz,kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z savunma mekanizmalar\u0131n\u0131n nas\u0131l \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc,nas\u0131l da ilkel,nas\u0131l yard\u0131ma muhta\u00e7,belki de i\u00e7ten bir dost omzuna ne kadar da ihtiya\u00e7 duydu\u011fumuzu anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bir dahaki sefere b\u00f6yle olmaz diye ge\u00e7i\u015ftirip, bir daha ki onlarca sefer de de\u011fi\u015fmedi\u011fimi \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrek farkeden, belliki ben de\u011filimdir sadece. Sanki zorla biraraya getirilmi\u015f puzzleden bir \u00e7er\u00e7eveymi\u015fcesine,olmayacak sorunlara gere\u011finden fazla \u00f6nem verip,ta\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 yerinden oynatacak , en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sars\u0131nt\u0131da \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcyor hayata olan ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Geri d\u00f6n\u00fclmez, sert, ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fc kararlar al\u0131yorum; en fazla ertesi g\u00fcn devam ettirebildi\u011fim, mutluluk pamuk ipli\u011fine ba\u011fl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f gibi geliyor bazen. Mutlu olabildi\u011fim zamanlarda, durmadan g\u00fclen y\u00fcz\u00fcm,sanki bu k\u0131sa s\u00fcrebilecek zaman dilimini, sonuna kadar kullanabilme iste\u011fimden.<a href=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Ani-Motel.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"wp-image-912 alignright\" style=\"border: 3px solid black; margin: 3px;\" title=\"Ani-Motel\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Ani-Motel-300x225.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"240\" height=\"180\" srcset=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Ani-Motel-300x225.png 300w, http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2005\/05\/Ani-Motel.png 650w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 240px) 100vw, 240px\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n\u00dcz\u00fclerek farkediyorum ki sen; haketti\u011finden \u00e7ok daha fazlas\u0131n\u0131 olu\u015fturuyorsun hayat\u0131m\u0131n, haberin bile olmadan \u00fcstelik. Demek\u2018ki diyorum hayat\u0131m boyunca okudu\u011fum t\u00fcm kitaplarlarla,dinledi\u011fim her \u015fark\u0131yla, izledi\u011fim ele\u015ftirdi\u011fim her filmle, sana haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m ben. T\u00fcm deneyimlerimle, bir g\u00fcn kar\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, t\u00fcm biriktirdiklerimi beraber payla\u015fal\u0131m diye. Senin \u00f6yle bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncenin olmamas\u0131 ne ac\u0131, i\u00e7imizdeki iklimleri anlatmak&#8230;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00dc\u015f\u00fcyorum hep. nedenini tahmin eder gibi de oluyorum hani. Evet, sen burada yoksun diye&#8230; y\u0131ld\u0131z parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 teninle odam\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum. omuzlar\u0131mdan ba\u015flayan bir titremeyle&#8230; i\u00e7imde hava \u00e7ok so\u011fuk. Sanki yan\u0131mda olsayd\u0131n sar\u0131labilecektim. Sanki elini tutabilecektim. hay\u0131r, y\u00fcz\u00fcne bile bakamayacakt\u0131m. G\u00f6zlerimi ka\u00e7\u0131racakt\u0131m.&#8221;nas\u0131ls\u0131n&#8221; derken bile kekeleyecektim, kelimeler bo\u011faz\u0131mda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenip kalacakt\u0131. \u0130\u00e7imde sonsuz bir heyecan olacakt\u0131. Hatta i\u00e7imdeki r\u00fczgar artacak, f\u0131rt\u0131naya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015febilme ihtimali olan, bir karayel haline b\u00fcr\u00fcnecekti. Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakamaman\u0131n, seninle konu\u015famam gerekti\u011finin verdi\u011fi s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ile sars\u0131lacakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">R\u00fczgarlar hep olacakt\u0131 i\u00e7imde, i\u00e7imizde&#8230; bana her k\u0131zd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, i\u00e7inden her k\u00fcf\u00fcr edi\u015finde \u015fiddetlenecekti, hava bulutlanacakt\u0131. Bana tav\u0131r koymak istedi\u011fin her an ba\u015f d\u00f6nd\u00fcrecekti. T\u00fcylerimizi diken diken edecekti. Ve ben hep o havalarla ya\u015f\u0131yor olacakt\u0131m. Senin benimle konu\u015ftu\u011funa sevinecektim. Ba\u015fkalar\u0131na inat estirecektim r\u00fczgar\u0131m\u0131. Birlikte g\u00fcl\u00fcp \u015fakala\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z zaman, i\u00e7imdeki g\u00fcl bah\u00e7esinde r\u00fczgar g\u00fcllerim d\u00f6necekti. Hafif hafif esecekti. Bana her bak\u0131\u015f\u0131nda memnun olacakt\u0131m. O zaman r\u00fczgar\u0131m, g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131nda yakamozlara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fecekti. Ben yine hep mutlu, hep iyimser. G\u00fcne\u015f bronzla\u015ft\u0131racakt\u0131 beyaz tenlerimizi.<a href=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/06\/madchen-.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-1500\" src=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/06\/madchen--240x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"240\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/06\/madchen--240x300.jpg 240w, http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/06\/madchen-.jpg 320w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 240px) 100vw, 240px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Havan\u0131n bozdu\u011fu zamanlar da olacakt\u0131 elbet, hep g\u00fcnl\u00fck g\u00fcne\u015flik, bayram d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn olmaz ya. Zaman olur hava da bozar bazen. Sonsuza kadar var olacak sevgimizle birlikte kavgam\u0131z\u0131 da edecektik, edebilecektik. Dik duracakt\u0131k birbirimizin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda. ozaman denizlerimizdeki dalgalar artacak, Beyaz beyaz k\u00f6p\u00fcklenecekti, sonra bir ya\u011fmur ba\u015flayacakt\u0131. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n simgesi olan bir ya\u011fmur&#8230; \u015eim\u015fekler bile \u00e7akacakt\u0131 belki. Ne olursa olsun yine, ben senin yerine de a\u011flayacakt\u0131m. Sana a\u011flayacak g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 b\u0131rakmayacakt\u0131m. o halimizle bile seni mutlu edecektim. g\u00fcne\u015f a\u00e7t\u0131racakt\u0131m i\u00e7imizde. eski halimize d\u00f6nd\u00fcrecektim hemen.<br \/>\nOlmad\u0131 galiba. \u00e7ok istedim ama i\u00e7ime r\u00fczgarlar\u0131, iklimleri yerle\u015ftiremedim. Bazen uzatma dakikalar\u0131nda art\u0131k kaybetti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn ya hani, o \u015fekildeyim. dedim ya, i\u00e7im so\u011fuk. iklimsiz, sadece so\u011fuk. Umut olmasa insan hi\u00e7 ya\u015fayabilir mi? \u0130lk Ergenli\u011fim. Elbette umutlar\u0131m, saplant\u0131lar\u0131m var. &#8220;belki&#8221; laf\u0131n\u0131 bu y\u00fczden severim. g\u00fcn gelsin de, ku\u015flar\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0 kumsalda y\u00fcr\u00fcyelim derim hep i\u00e7imden. kimse olmadan, sen ve ben&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Belkilerde sakl\u0131 sevdam.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Memo\u015f 15.06.2005 Side<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 sana yazd\u0131m t\u00fcm yazd\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n sana oldu\u011fu gibi&#8230; \u00a0g\u00f6rme diye&#8230; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen bilin\u00e7alt\u0131m\u0131n en gizli k\u00f6\u015fesisin, en g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen k\u0131sm\u0131ndas\u0131n, ve g\u00fczel yerlerini an\u0131lar\u0131mla dolduruyorsun. Bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 sana yazd\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen sana yaz\u0131lacak iyi, k\u00f6t\u00fc, g\u00fczel, \u00e7irkin t\u00fcm yaz\u0131lar\u0131 hakediyorsun. \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen teksin, belkilerde sakl\u0131 sevdams\u0131n. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen benim i\u00e7in kelimelerimin ka\u011f\u0131da d\u00f6k\u00fclmesini gerektirecek varl\u0131ks\u0131n. 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