{"id":1105,"date":"2012-02-14T11:03:41","date_gmt":"2012-02-14T09:03:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=1105"},"modified":"2015-03-29T21:30:13","modified_gmt":"2015-03-29T19:30:13","slug":"can-dostum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/?p=1105","title":{"rendered":"CAN DOSTUM"},"content":{"rendered":"

T\u00fcm haftan\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funu \u00fczerimden atmak, olanlar\u0131 unutmak ve g\u00fczel bir pazar g\u00fcn\u00fcne uyanmak umuduyla girmi\u015ftim o gece yata\u011fa<\/strong>.\"\" Yata\u011fa girdi\u011fimde bir an olsun b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131mdan kendimi soyutlay\u0131p kapatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m g\u00f6zlerimi, e\u015fime g\u00f6re; s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131, berbat zor bana g\u00f6re; ya\u015fam, sevin\u00e7, g\u00fczellik, s\u00fcrprizlerle dolu bir d\u00fcnya.
\nBu \u015fekilde uykuya dalan \u0130hsan \u00f6\u011flene kadar uyurdu\u00a0 herhalde; nerde! G\u00f6zlerimi bile k\u0131rpmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn gece. Staki ile son yaz\u0131\u015fmam\u2019da y\u0131llardan beri arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m dostumun beni, arayaca\u011f\u0131 haberi; yetmi\u015f artm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 uykumu yenmeye.
\nG\u00f6zlerim a\u00e7\u0131k ya\u011fmurun sesi kula\u011f\u0131mda, ku\u015f c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 konser veriyorlar sanki sabah\u0131n seherinde. Kalkt\u0131m, pencereye y\u00f6neldim. Art\u0131k s\u0131gara duman\u0131ndan rengi belli olmayan perdeyi biraz aralad\u0131m. Hava kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Bulutlar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kaplama konusunda adeta birbirlerine nazire yap\u0131yorlard\u0131. Bu, i\u00e7i gibi kapal\u0131 ve a\u011f\u0131r havay\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce keyfim ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bilgisayara bakt\u0131m; bir haber yoktu henn\u00fcz dostumdan. Can\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, aceleyle giyinirken, bir an \u00f6nce d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kp hava almak istiyordum.
\n\"\" \u00d6nceleri ferahlat\u0131c\u0131, serinlik hissi veren ya\u011fmur taneleri ve onlar\u0131 per\u00e7inleyen r\u00fczgar bir s\u00fcre sonra olduk\u00e7a rahats\u0131z etti beni . Hava hala kapal\u0131yd\u0131.Ya\u011fmur \u015fiddetini azalt\u0131rken r\u00fczgar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7apl\u0131 bir kas\u0131rgaya d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Bo\u015f, geni\u015f ve \u0131ss\u0131z Side\u2018nin sokaktlar\u0131nda esen r\u00fczgar, yaprak misali oradan oraya savuruyordu bedenimi. Ya\u011fmurun tekrar \u015fiddetlenmesi ile K\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda\u2019ki\u00a0 ye\u015fil renkli,bol pencereli ve i\u00e7inde bir s\u00fcr\u00fc turistin oturdu\u011fu Erolun kahvehanesinde buluvermi\u015ftim kendimi.
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, birazda \u0131slanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m; ancak s\u0131cak bir \u00e7ay deva olabilirdi derdime. \u0130\u00e7eri girer girmez her zaman oturdu\u011fum bo\u015f masada buldu\u011fum bir sandalyeye y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131verdim, hemen tav\u015fan kan\u0131 bir \u00e7ay s\u00f6yledim. \u00c7ay gelene kadar kafam\u0131n i\u00e7indeki sorular dans ediyordu. Staki kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yormuydu. Asl\u0131nda okadar emindiki Grigory\u2019nin Ligori oldu\u011fundan. Hadi be dostum yaz iki sat\u0131r da kurtar beni \u015fu bilimez ikili denklemden. \u00c7ay\u0131m gelmi\u015fti ,bir yudum ald\u0131m \u00e7aydan,i\u00e7im \u0131s\u0131nd\u0131, gev\u015feyiverdim.Kahvehanede Sahhibi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan personel d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda hi\u00e7 kimseyi tan\u0131m\u0131yordum. Zaten bu k\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcnde ucuzcu Alman Turistlerden ba\u015fkas\u0131 olmazd\u0131 pek Side\u2019de.
\nMoteldeki bilgisayar\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda g\u00fcn \u00e7oktan geceyle bulu\u015fmu\u015f,bir ufakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n dibini getirmi\u015ftim bile . G\u00f6zlerime inanam\u0131yordum! Belki \u00fc\u00e7 d\u00f6rt kere \u00fcst \u00fcste okudum.
\nMehmet,,senmisin,,? Baglarba\u015f\u0131,Ogust,terzi Koco usta,,resimde cok de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fsin buna ragmen bana hi\u00e7 yabanc\u0131 gelmiyor,,e\u011fer bu sensen cok sevinirim,degilsen rahats\u0131z etti\u011fim i\u00e7in \u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim…\"\"
\nTam otuzbe\u015f y\u0131l beklemi\u015ftim ben b\u00f6yle bir haberi ayaklar\u0131m yerden kesilmi\u015fti. Bara ge\u00e7tim herkez \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n g\u00f6zlerle bana bak\u0131yordu. Eh bukadar sevincin yan\u0131nda bir ufak daha giderdi. Sabaha Allah kerimdi. Ayn\u0131 mahallede, sokakta yan yana evlerde ya\u015faman\u0131n, biriktirilen an\u0131lar\u0131n de\u011ferini kaybedince anl\u0131yor insan.
\nCan dostum olan Ligori de\u011fil miydi? Hayat onlar\u0131 bu \u015fekildemi mi kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131racakt\u0131? Evlendikten sonra Almanyaya gitmi\u015ftim asl\u0131nda ona bir mektup bile yazm\u0131\u015f cevab\u0131n\u0131 da alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Tekrar yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m mektup geri gelmi\u015fti.Ve b\u00f6ylelikle aram\u0131zdaki bu s\u0131k\u0131 ve su g\u00f6t\u00fcrmez ba\u011f kopmu\u015ftu bir \u015fekilde. Ligori bir \u00e7ok ahbab\u0131 olmayan, sevecen,g\u00fcler y\u00fczl\u00fc, s\u0131cakkanl\u0131, dost canl\u0131s\u0131 ve sevimli bir arkada\u015f\u0131md\u0131. Annesi\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 ( Mamam ) kendi Annemdan fark\u0131 yoktu karde\u015fi b\u0131c\u0131r k\u0131z karde\u015fim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131dan m\u0131 nedir benim bir tanemdi. Yabanc\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011fum yeni mahallede onlar\u0131n sayesinde nefes almaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. B\u00fcy\u00fckadadan \u00dcsk\u00fcdara ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f olmak pek okadar ac\u0131 vermiyordu art\u0131k. Ne hayaller kurmu\u015ftuk gelecek i\u00e7in. Evin i\u00e7inde, Bah\u00e7ede her gen\u00e7 gibi. Sevgililerimizde vard\u0131 ho\u015f ben yaral\u0131yd\u0131m,Kaybetti\u011fim Niki\u2019nin ard\u0131ndan. Teselli etmekse Ligori\u2019ye kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\n\"\" Adapazar\u0131 Annemin memleketi. Kuzenlerimle Bir d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde Sabri Arsan\u2019\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131m Ne\u015feli ho\u015f vurdum duymaz bir arkada\u015ft\u0131. Gitar \u00e7al\u0131p \u015eant\u00f6rl\u00fck yap\u0131yordu. Besteleride vard\u0131. Hayat\u0131 hep deli dolu ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131m ben ald\u0131m Sabriyi \u00dcsk\u00fcdara eve geldim. L\u0130gori\u2019de geldi; Ligori iyi gitar \u00e7alar nota bigiside vard\u0131. Evdeki M\u00fcz\u00fck dolab\u0131, Bantl\u0131 Grundig teyp i\u015flerimizi kolayla\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ligori ba\u015flad\u0131 Sabrinin bestelerini notaya d\u00f6kmeye. B\u00fcy\u00fck Adadan A\u011fbimin arkada\u015f\u0131 Nino Varon o zamanlar Odeon\u2019un genel m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc. Gittik yan\u0131na anlatt\u0131m derdimizi \u00f6nce g\u00fcld\u00fc sonra Notalara bakt\u0131 tamam dedi. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fczde \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nd\u0131k. \u00dcsk\u00fcdara d\u00f6nerken Sirkeciden f\u0131r\u0131ndan taze \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f s\u0131cak\u00a0 \u00fc\u00e7 ekmek i\u00e7ine Ka\u015far peyniri vapurda g\u00fcle oynaya d\u00f6nd\u00fck eve. K\u00f6\u015fedeki Bakkal Mehmetten Bir b\u00fcy\u00fck Rak\u0131 Beyaz peynir\u00a0 evlerden de biraz bir \u015feyler oturduk koyulduk kutlamaya.
\n\"\" Hem me\u015fhur hem de zengin olacakt\u0131k. Hem Sabri\u2019yle, hemde Ligori\u2019yle menecerlik s\u00f6zle\u015fmesini yapm\u0131\u015f imzalatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bile. O k\u0131rkbe\u015flik Plak \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 satt\u0131\u2018 da Biraz da para\u2018da b\u0131rakt\u0131. Biz \u00fc\u00e7 kafadar \u00fc\u00e7 d\u00f6rt ay bunun hayali ile ya\u015fay\u0131p ordan oraya ko\u015fturup durmu\u015ftuk.Gen\u00e7lik b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey olmal\u0131yd\u0131 herhalde. Kader dedi\u011fimiz ya\u015fam\u0131n rotas\u0131 b\u00f6yle \u00e7izilmi\u015fti.
\nBana mutluluk vermi\u015f ne varsa her bir yerden, b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 toparlamak, d\u00fczenlemekle ge\u00e7iriyordum zaman\u0131m\u0131. Ne kadar da \u00e7ok \u015fey b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f\u0131m arkamda. Arkana bakma hep \u00f6n\u00fcne bak arkanda b\u0131rakt\u0131klar\u0131n engeldir sana tavsiyelerinin anlams\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131,yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bu g\u00fcn g\u00f6rmek \u00fcz\u00fcyor beni. Zaman arkada kalanlar\u0131 toparlama, g\u00f6n\u00fcl alma zaman\u0131. Te\u015fekk\u00fcrler Can dostlar\u0131m Ligori, Sabri, Ta\u015fk\u0131n, \u0130yiki vard\u0131n\u0131z hayat\u0131mda, uzak kalm\u0131\u015f olsakta birbirimizden y\u0131llarca ben sizleri hi\u00e7 mi hi\u00e7 unutamad\u0131m. Hep arad\u0131m, biz hi\u00e7 ayr\u0131lmad\u0131k\u2019ki asl\u0131nda; sadece ara verdik hayata. \u00d6mr\u00fcn bu son deminde umar\u0131m kaderin rotas\u0131 do\u011fru bir yol \u00e7izer bu defa. Bir lokma ekmek bir yudum \u015farap o g\u00fcnlerde, nas\u0131lki yettiyse bize. Kim bilir! Belki biraz fazlas\u0131yla bir k\u0131rkbe\u015flik daha. Gurbet a\u011f\u0131r geliyor art\u0131k, ne dersiniz dostlar\u0131m zaman \u00e7abuk ge\u00e7iyor. Her \u015fey d\u00fcn gibi zaman!
\nBelkide b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yere d\u00f6nme zaman\u0131.
\nCan\u0131m karde\u015fim Niki\u2019yi de buldum sonunda haberin olsun<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

T\u00fcm haftan\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funu \u00fczerimden atmak, olanlar\u0131 unutmak ve g\u00fczel bir pazar g\u00fcn\u00fcne uyanmak umuduyla girmi\u015ftim o gece yata\u011fa. Yata\u011fa girdi\u011fimde bir an olsun b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131mdan kendimi soyutlay\u0131p kapatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m g\u00f6zlerimi, e\u015fime g\u00f6re; s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131, berbat zor bana g\u00f6re; ya\u015fam, sevin\u00e7, g\u00fczellik, s\u00fcrprizlerle dolu bir d\u00fcnya. Bu \u015fekilde uykuya dalan \u0130hsan \u00f6\u011flene kadar uyurdu\u00a0 herhalde; nerde! G\u00f6zlerimi bile […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1105"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1105"}],"version-history":[{"count":11,"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1105\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1971,"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1105\/revisions\/1971"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1105"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1105"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/xn--zkartal-80a.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1105"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}